Sunday, May 30, 2010

missin' you

wish i could wake up and forget about you. not try to call you when i know i want to. i gotta fight this feeling, can't let it take over me. you don't understand how much you were a part of me.

sisters

i think girls know each other.
when a girl feels sad, we get a vibe.
it's like a telepathic thing i guess.
we understand each other. 
we talk shit about each other.
we love each other.
like sisters.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

the 'R' word

regrets : to think of with a sense of loss


too many to think about
too many to deal with
just...too 
many 
regrets


as i am afraid of commitment
i am a friend of regrets
i am a friend of hoping
hoping what'll happen
only if i just didn't do that
only if i just moved on


in my thoughts
knowing that he's not going to let me back into his life
i try to move on
it hurts
but what can i do


'anything can happen'
really? how are you so sure?
'if you want something to happen, create your own path'
but im scared, what if it's not what i wanted?
'all you need to do is take your step'
my first step...
fear 
someone help

what's next

so prom is in...2days? 1 day?
because of our stupid vp it's on a thursday
i don't really know what i want to say
but i just feel like i want to write something
totally random


prom, maybe a once in a life time thing
"i want to make it memorable"
who doesn't?
it's the end of high school (finally)
probably won't get a lot of chances to chill with friends
they'll go their ways
you go your way


after prom who knows what's going to happen
[after all the crazy parties :) ]
exams
summer
...


hopefully we're going to remember all the things that happened
10 years later
we'll have a reunion
now won't that be interesting

Monday, May 24, 2010

The Ultimate Gift

The Gift of Work
The Gift of Problems
The Gift of Friends
The Gift of Giving
The Gift of Gratitude
The Gift of Family
The Gift of Learning
The Gift of Money
The Gift of Laughter
The Gift of a Day
The Gift of Dreams
The Gift of Love
All those gifts lead to The Ultimate Gift
And your gift would be..?
                                                                                             The novel by Jim Stovall  

Monday, May 17, 2010

the most incredible

Great King Rat
The March Of The Great King
Mustapha - Bicycle Race - Don't Stop Me Now
Play The Game - Crazy Little Thing Called Love
Staying Power
It's A Hard Life
Pain Is So Close To Pleasure - Princes of the Universe
Was It All Worth It
I'm Going Slightly Mad
Killer Queen
Death on Two Legs - Bohemian Rhapsody - Love of My Life
Somebody To Love - Good Old-Fashioned Lover Boy
We Are The Champions


Freddie Mercury
"I'm just a musical prostitute, my dear."
"When I'm performing I'm an extrovert, yet inside I'm a completely different man."


who wouldn't love a man like this

Sunday, May 9, 2010

nkjt

so i have this one friend that i have known for a real long time.
the thing is we haven't really had a 'serious' talk or anything like that.
we barely talk at all..maybe once a while but not as often.
it's kind of weird how i want to talk to my friend but i can't. somehow.
it's so weird. it feels weird. knowing someone for that long.
it's kind of amazing to think that i'll have a friend like that.
i think that my friend is one awesome person.
my friend's got real talent in everything. kind of. from what i know of.
i know that my friend's gonna have a wonderful future.
and just hopefully my friend knows that i'm always gonna be there for them. when i'm not busy. :)

i just want you to know
that i'll be there for you.
even though we have never been through thick and thin.
even though we have never had a memorable time with our friends.
even though we have never talked to each other as much as our other friends.
i'll be there.
and hopefully you'll be there for me.

우리 같이 사진찍은거 보니까
우리 좀 귀엽다. >ㅂ<
시간이 이렇게 빨리지나간다는게
신기하고, 무섭고
우리가 12년동안 같이있었다는게
난 좋다.
너가 있어서. 고마워.
Never Forget - 브라운 아이드 소울 (Brown Eyed Soul)

Saturday, May 8, 2010

how it feels

how it feels when someone has their first crush.
happiness.
how it feels when someone confesses.
nervous.
how it feels when you get rejected.
pain.

the feeling she gets when she likes you.
the feeling she gets when he like her.
the feeling he gets when he leaves her.

these feelings we get.
describe them.
what are they.
what do they do to us.
do these feelings make us who we are.

happiness.
what really makes us happy.
nervousness.
why is it that we feel nervous.
pain.
how can we get away from the pain we get.

how it feels...

Monday, May 3, 2010

when everything just...

when everything just starts falling down
everything you try to do fails
it brings you down
and you give up

then somehow you just forget about it
everything's forgotten
something new starts
and you move on but it's hard

some people don't like changes
they're afraid of them
or they don't like it
it keeps memories of things or people

it's hard to just let go of things
it's hard to let go of people you loved
it's hard to move on with your life
knowing that this person won't be there

knowing that he won't be beside you
when you need someone to lean on
he's not going to be there anymore
you try hard to let go

you put a smile on your face
he would be the only one
he would know if it was real
he's the reason you smiled

you acted normal
acted like as if everything's okay
he would ask if there was something wrong
you told him everything

he was everything to you
then all of a sudden he's gone
he's not there anymore
you have no one to rely on

you try to fit in with others
they like you, looks of you
not what you're inside
then you remember him

it's hard to change, it just happens gradually without you even knowing about it
you try to be the same person you are before
but you know it's not going to happen

and life just goes
you live on