thoughtless
emotionless
feeling of nothing.
emptiness
GAHHHHHHHH
life events.
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Friday, April 1, 2011
Officially Done
so this is how it feels.
i actually feel really GREAT.
i may not sound like it via blogging but i do (:
i thought i was over before, but i wasn't.
but NOW i know that i am.
it's different from what i felt before.
it's something i've never felt.
it feels pretty GOOD.
i went to visit my high school a few days ago and i met a friend of mine.
we were (i guess you can say) really close.
shit happened and i left school so we got distant.
but when we were taking a 'walk' outside the school, we had a nice conversation (i think?).
she asked me if i was still into the guy.
i said no. then it just hit me. i actually don't. AT ALL.
then she goes on saying "yeah, please don't fall for him again. i really don't want to see you guys together again. like ever."
so i said "no way. never again."
(finally realizing that i won't)
a few days before going to my high school. my best friend had a huge fight with her boy friend.
they've been together for a little over 2 years and they were on the verge of breaking up.
(they were on and off so i thought it was just one of those. but it wasn't)
she got hurt. emotionally and physically. which made me mad.
believe me, if you heard all the shit she's been through, you'd want to damage her boy friend so much that he'd suffer taking each breath.
this was a lot worse and more serious than ever before.
she said that she wanted to work things out.
that's what she always says. she looks at the bright side.
she told her other friend to do the same.
talk to her boy friend, talk it out and get to a solution.
that's what she told me.
she said "i know you still care for him, it's the same as i feel towards my boy friend. i love him but i hate him. love-hate relationship. talk to him about the stuff you're feeling but i'm just telling you to be careful. set boundaries and be bitchy"
and that is exactly what i did (and still somewhat doing)
time does heal.
it took me a while.
made a few mistakes that were worth a million truths.
but i got here.
i do regret. i always regret.
but I'M DONE.
no more of those crappy "oh i think i still love you." "take me back." "i remember when...blahblah"
nothing but pure joy of forgetting that douchebag.
i still care for him but not as much.
i really don't care what he does. it's his fucking life.
in my opinion, no offence dude but you're fucked up.
i'm saying this really nicely.
i realized that i was a fucking retard and pathetic before.
but you know what.
you're even worse.
so here i say the proud words that i actually mean to say.
i am so over you.
FINALLY
fucking shit
p.s. not a april fools jokes bitch
i actually feel really GREAT.
i may not sound like it via blogging but i do (:
i thought i was over before, but i wasn't.
but NOW i know that i am.
it's different from what i felt before.
it's something i've never felt.
it feels pretty GOOD.
i went to visit my high school a few days ago and i met a friend of mine.
we were (i guess you can say) really close.
shit happened and i left school so we got distant.
but when we were taking a 'walk' outside the school, we had a nice conversation (i think?).
she asked me if i was still into the guy.
i said no. then it just hit me. i actually don't. AT ALL.
then she goes on saying "yeah, please don't fall for him again. i really don't want to see you guys together again. like ever."
so i said "no way. never again."
(finally realizing that i won't)
a few days before going to my high school. my best friend had a huge fight with her boy friend.
they've been together for a little over 2 years and they were on the verge of breaking up.
(they were on and off so i thought it was just one of those. but it wasn't)
she got hurt. emotionally and physically. which made me mad.
believe me, if you heard all the shit she's been through, you'd want to damage her boy friend so much that he'd suffer taking each breath.
this was a lot worse and more serious than ever before.
she said that she wanted to work things out.
that's what she always says. she looks at the bright side.
she told her other friend to do the same.
talk to her boy friend, talk it out and get to a solution.
that's what she told me.
she said "i know you still care for him, it's the same as i feel towards my boy friend. i love him but i hate him. love-hate relationship. talk to him about the stuff you're feeling but i'm just telling you to be careful. set boundaries and be bitchy"
and that is exactly what i did (and still somewhat doing)
time does heal.
it took me a while.
made a few mistakes that were worth a million truths.
but i got here.
i do regret. i always regret.
but I'M DONE.
no more of those crappy "oh i think i still love you." "take me back." "i remember when...blahblah"
nothing but pure joy of forgetting that douchebag.
i still care for him but not as much.
i really don't care what he does. it's his fucking life.
in my opinion, no offence dude but you're fucked up.
i'm saying this really nicely.
i realized that i was a fucking retard and pathetic before.
but you know what.
you're even worse.
so here i say the proud words that i actually mean to say.
i am so over you.
FINALLY
fucking shit
p.s. not a april fools jokes bitch
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