almost

it's december and it'll be the beginning of a new year in a few weeks.
first christmas then new years.
end of something old and start of something new.


we don't know what's ahead of us,
but that's life isn't it?
the adventure of figuring out what's ahead of us.
waiting to face everything coming our way.
making choices.
finding out reasons.
same things over and over as each year passes by.


people make new years resolutions.
how many people really stick to it?
what happens after you reach it?
the sense of achievement, success and what?
all for what? 
to just feel good about yourself?
to prove to yourself that you can do what you want?
i don't really get it...


once in a while i stumble onto a movie that catches my attention.
during the summer it was "The Ultimate Gift"
nothing after that. 
watching that movie taught me a lot of things about life.
about everything really and it's gonna change me.
take in that movie and change my life.
i've been in this mood lately.
to change everything about me.
put everything in the past. 
i don't want to remember them. ever.
so new years.
2011
bring it. i'll be ready.
new me. 
good bye old me.
i hope to never see you again