tell me that this will end

everyone asks why. 

i say it's just so.

they don't get it.

neither do i.

and neither do you.

you thought we would be happy. 

at least that's what you thought.

you're happy.

i'm not.

but it's not like you're going to know.

i keep everything bottled up remember?

you think i'm an alcoholic.

you think i'm a smoker.

you don't even trust me.

i don't see why i have to go through all this.

all the shit you put me through.

while you just sit and relax.

who knew i'd end up this way.

feeling like shit every time.

well i hope you're even happy now. you have all the time in your hands.

not having to worry about me. have fun going out with your friends.

drinking and partying. have a great time just chilling.

not having to think about anything.

so have fun while it lasts.

lets hope we never go through this again.

it shouldn't have started in the first place.

i was just too blind to see.

well now i know.

that i should stay the fuck out of your life.